Eloquence

I just made this long rambling post about me having had several bad days in a row these few days because of my racing thoughts which how my mania manifests itself and I read it and I realized how bad it actually was how things were all just jumbled and then I suddenly talked about how it wasn't all that bad because I'm working on a story that I want to get published but I ended up with this wall of words and now this is a run on sentence and so what if I just abruptly